Sunday, May 15, 2005
Grace is hard for me. I don't want to have to be "forgiven" . . . or "accepted as I am." I instead work to become a person who should, who must, be accepted, and then get depressed that I am not that. There is such a strong sense of law in me. It keeps me from you.
Thursday, May 12, 2005
I don't want to stand outside and evaluate people. I've done this--it's an interior posture--at various times regarding friends, my wife, a church, the church, and I think its wrong. I want to stand "within" at all times. Within relationship, within bonds of commitment, within them, whether I'm talking or even thinking. "We are part of one another." God connects us.